Are You Sick?
I've written before about insecurity, and how when we act like we have everything together all the time, we can make other people feel insufficient. It's kind of like showing people our "highlight reels" instead of showing them all of the messy stuff that ends up on the cutting room floor.
So let me be honest. Right now, my life is kind of a mess. I just spent six days in the hospital that were miserable, stressful, and mentally draining. While in was in there, a relationship in my life radically deteriorated and threw some shrapnel into another relationship in my life. Finances are a mess, trusting God's direction in these upcoming months is hard because I'm left with the decision to go away or to stay here. A person I loved disappeared from my life, I feel far from God because I know I've been disobeying Him. And on top of that? After being cleared from the hospital, I wake up yesterday intending on just being sad about a breakup, and find white patches on my tonsils and my throat is so sore that I can't swallow or eat or drink.Yeah.
So I've been miserably moping on my couch all day watching a "19 Kids & Counting" marathon, trying to drink tea, and lecturing myself on how bad of a Christian I am when I decided to finally just read my Bible and be a big girl. As I close up Luke 5, verses 31&32 jumped out at me, which say "Jesus answered them, 'it is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance."
First, I kind of rolled my eyes at the doctor reference, because I definitely get that right at this moment. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that sick people know that they need a doctor. I got antibiotics from a doctor just this morning because I knew I was sick (again). So people are only going to go to Jesus when they come to the place that they know they're sick and need Him. My commentary on this verse says that before we're able to be spiritually healed, we need to know we're sinners separated from God.
Life falls apart when we think that we don't need Jesus. It gets messy when we think that we have a situation together, or that we can disobey Him and choose what we want when he tells us no. It gets painful when we decide that we are healthy and able and strong on our own, and we think that we don't need His guidance or wisdom because we just have it all together this day. In all honesty, most of the things that I'm going through right now wouldn't have happened if I had listened to Him and been obedient from the beginning.
Where are you today? Are you sick? Are you in need of a doctor? The answer is yes, because we all are, and there's nothing shameful about it. The great thing is that Jesus doesn't just perform a "check up" on you once a year and forget about you in between. He's here every second, foreseeing the wounds that you're going to get and binding up the brokenness that you stumbled into today. He wants to make you healthy so that you can serve Him and follow Him, because that's the bottom line of this life. Anything that we want to do on our own and in our own power will never be worth disobeying God for that time.
Go to Jesus today. Tell Him that you need Him today. Stop trying to heal your life of your own strength, and rest in the One who can and will heal you. He loves you in your brokenness.
So let me be honest. Right now, my life is kind of a mess. I just spent six days in the hospital that were miserable, stressful, and mentally draining. While in was in there, a relationship in my life radically deteriorated and threw some shrapnel into another relationship in my life. Finances are a mess, trusting God's direction in these upcoming months is hard because I'm left with the decision to go away or to stay here. A person I loved disappeared from my life, I feel far from God because I know I've been disobeying Him. And on top of that? After being cleared from the hospital, I wake up yesterday intending on just being sad about a breakup, and find white patches on my tonsils and my throat is so sore that I can't swallow or eat or drink.Yeah.
So I've been miserably moping on my couch all day watching a "19 Kids & Counting" marathon, trying to drink tea, and lecturing myself on how bad of a Christian I am when I decided to finally just read my Bible and be a big girl. As I close up Luke 5, verses 31&32 jumped out at me, which say "Jesus answered them, 'it is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance."
First, I kind of rolled my eyes at the doctor reference, because I definitely get that right at this moment. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that sick people know that they need a doctor. I got antibiotics from a doctor just this morning because I knew I was sick (again). So people are only going to go to Jesus when they come to the place that they know they're sick and need Him. My commentary on this verse says that before we're able to be spiritually healed, we need to know we're sinners separated from God.
Life falls apart when we think that we don't need Jesus. It gets messy when we think that we have a situation together, or that we can disobey Him and choose what we want when he tells us no. It gets painful when we decide that we are healthy and able and strong on our own, and we think that we don't need His guidance or wisdom because we just have it all together this day. In all honesty, most of the things that I'm going through right now wouldn't have happened if I had listened to Him and been obedient from the beginning.
Where are you today? Are you sick? Are you in need of a doctor? The answer is yes, because we all are, and there's nothing shameful about it. The great thing is that Jesus doesn't just perform a "check up" on you once a year and forget about you in between. He's here every second, foreseeing the wounds that you're going to get and binding up the brokenness that you stumbled into today. He wants to make you healthy so that you can serve Him and follow Him, because that's the bottom line of this life. Anything that we want to do on our own and in our own power will never be worth disobeying God for that time.
Go to Jesus today. Tell Him that you need Him today. Stop trying to heal your life of your own strength, and rest in the One who can and will heal you. He loves you in your brokenness.
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